random....

somethings are never meant to change,

no matter how hard the struggle,they always remain the same....

some call it destiny, some fate.....

some think its pre determined, for some its just a matter of time.....

some think its ur fault that it happened,

does that mean that its really possible to change the outcome???

what do u do when things go wrong, no matter what u do...

or is it just that u think they r wrong, when in reality they r not??

is it really impossible to change somethings.........

when do u know where to stop the struggle??????

or as people say keep working, but that too without results??????

does the term 'makeover' really apply in real life???

damn!!!!!!!!!!! m confused...............

questions.....

Why????? Why is it that we r so desperate for marks???  Why is it that our entire world gets reduced to marks and grades especially during the compreesssss???

 Why is it that we assume and expect so many things?? 

It all starts with the pre comprees being put up…. Ek ek mark ke liye jhagda… our section avg is low, he/she has not given us marks, our instructor suxx, he/she is bias, such a ******* , its so unfair… blah blah blah….. a minute analysis of the entire grade sheet follows…………..

“ I lost my grade by a mark, what the ***** is this?”  “This is not done”… How much did u get?? This is soo unfair , blah blah blha….

Its like uhhhhhhh

ENOUGH……………

How much analysis r u gonna put in one excel sheet????? Come on people, its  just the pre compree, u still have time in comprees……

  

 Why is it that we assume so many things?????/ That we expect full marks in all  continuous evaluative components just for being physically present for them????? As if  we r doing a favour to the teachers…

Why do we expect to get ful marks for the report just for submitting it, irrespective of the fact whether we have actually put in an effort or not?

Or why is it that we expect atleast 90% marks in the lab tests just for being present there n doing something, no matter what u have done is rite or wrong???

N when these expectations are not fulfilled, we make a huge hue n cry about it…

Is it fair???

 

Why is it that anyone who cares to put in efforts for a lab report is labeled as dumb, and his/her work as waste and timepass??? Or for that matter, made fun of amongst his/her peers??

Why is it that a person who does good in POM is not considered as intelligent or is not given as much credit as someone who does good in say a technical course? Its not that POm does not require effort on that persons part. If it is so easy then why doesn’t everybody score full marks in it??

 

Why is it that people take  project only under a particular teacher coz the teacher is known for giving easy A grade?? Is only grade that matters in life? Does it not have any importance at all what kind of work u have done, or how much u have learned in the process? Is ur effort, ur sincerity, ur honesty not at all important?? Only what matters in the end is whether u get an A or not, irrespective of whether u have worked or not!!!!!!!!!!!! How sick can people get??

 

Why do people get so desperate for marks that they fall to the levels of cheating in an exam?? Cheating!!!!!!!!!!!!! By students from an institute like BITS!!!!!!! What then is the difference between us and the people from other colleges??? How do we stand out?? Are grades so important that we give up our ethics, our moral values, our conscience for its sake???

 

Someone who starts studying about an hour  before u is called as phodu. We live in constant fear of the other person n how much he or she has studied coz we fear that the average is gonna be high. Friendship doesn’t really matter here, all that matters is marks!!! The irony is a person who has got less marks has to console a person who has got more marks just coz the latter is losing a grade by a couple of marks or sth, or in some cases not even losing the grade, just FEELING that they r gonna loose the grade!!!!!!!!!!

 

We keep saying 10p’s r sick coz they keep studying… well the only difference is, they care for matks as much as u do, just that they start working for it from day one n get them, we work at the last moment and expect to score as much. Well if grades r so important then y not work for them as much??  Why blame others for studying more just coz they care more?? Or they put in more effort??  Why swear at them, instead of working hard ourselves???

 

Are grades more important than knowledge? U say its not ur subject then why should u have its knowledge? Well in that case, why even bother about it grade?? As it is its not gonna affect ur future much, then why bother at all??

 

Why is it that we have lost all sense of morality? That honesty, sincerity, dedication, hardwork,originality are now merely words in the dictionary?? And the person who tries to follow them in real life is mocked at or thought of as impractical??

Why???

Can neone give me an honest satisfactory answer to this epect for I m thinking too idealistic and impractical and ‘when in rome do as the romans do’.?

Anyone??

 

PS- This post is not meant to offend anyone, its just a reflection of my thoughts. If I have offended anyone in the process, its unintentional n I apologise for the same.

I was or rather am also one of the above mentioned persons, and that is one thing I regret. I never thought it was wrong but now I m ashamed to think that I was one of those people and I had reduced myself to such a narrow line of thought. This post is one the first step towards making amends……

 

 

 

 

 

 

the ' saying' dilemma :P

to say or not to say, thats the question.....

see thts wat happens whn u start studying for an xam 3 (omg 3!!!!) days in advance, u cant concentrate n u start  gettign werid thoughts into ur head:P

specially if u r studying a subject like CAS, nothing can beat tht....

 ya as i was saying, 'to say or not to say, is the question' (  i totally respect Shakespear, no offence meant to him).....

i guess  most people might have understood by now wat i m talking abt.... if not..... well there is nothing much tht i can do abt it, this is something u ought to understand urself, woh kehte hai na-' samajhdar ko ishara kafi hai'   :P

coming back to our basic question- ' to say or not to say'

i guess almost 50% of us r facing or have faced this dilemma at some point of there life - "should i say or should i not??", " what will the other person feel if i say??", "what will the other person feel if i dont say?", how will he/ she react??"," wat if he/she is offended?", "wat if he/she is hurt?"

" is this the rite time??" "or should i wait for some more time??", " will the person be in the rite frame of mind??", " is the situation rite??", " should i have said it earlier??", " should i postpone it till everything becomes perfect??" or " should i say it all??"

these and a thousand more contemplations and we come back to where we started from- ' to say or not to say'.

why does it become so difficult to express ourselves in front of tht person whom we feel knows us the best, or rather with whom we can talk for hours together on any topic under the sun???

i mean ,come on, this is one person with whom u have shared everything and then suddenly u r unable to express urself!!!!!! how ironic can it get???

y does it get so complicated?

is it possible for just one line to change everything??, y does it have to affect us so much??

i guess wat most of us fear more than rejection is the end of it all.......

thats why the contemplations- ' to say or not to say'....

is there really a correct answer to this question????

different people have different opinions.......

according to some its best to wait till the time is rite......

but then how do u know the time is rite?? it can happen tht u keep on waititng n then one fine day u realise the time has already passed n now thr's nothing tht u can do abt it..

so should we just wait n watch??

some think its best never to say anything n let the other person understand....

but then isnt there a huge risk of getting misunderstood or rather just assuming things?? both of which can lead to undesirable consequences...

some believe in just saying.....

well ya its not tht easy, n yes all the above mentioned contemplations come into picture.....

in this case there is no risk of assuming things but ya ur worst fears can come true ( y so even i dunno, but the possibility cannot be ignored)

n even if they dont well thr r other things, awkward silences, stick situations, the charm is lost i guess..

so its basically a never ending debate...........

i m confused......

wats ur say????

Testing times...............

                         Yoyo, its test time again....( ok i know thrs nothing to yoyo abt tht, woh aisehi kiya :P). So, as i was saying t2 starts 26th march...... nightmare for most of the second n third yearites actually, considering tht 90% of their papers are open book.... :P. For me n my frnds initially it used to be like- open book test... we get to see the book in test... so liteeeee. After three sems here now its like; open book? waise bhi kuch nahi aane wala... so liteeee    :P.  Moral of the story is as always, whether u study or not, t2 gg..... ( except for the 10p's who always do welll no matter wat... hats off to them for tht).

                    But thinking of tests, i think most bitsians think of similar things..... 

It all starts with long hours in the library,u can see all kinds of people in the lib b4 n during tests (not just the regular couples :P). Any outside person can also predict tht tests r coming up by just taking the look at the number of bags in the library bag room :P. Even our very own uncle sam can predict tht tests r round the corner( ok by uncle sam i meant uncle sam frm mongi :P).

I remember going to mongi the evening b4 mt midsem for a coffee break with a frnd, and uncle sam was like- ' koi xam hai kya kal?' , when we said yes he says ' isiliye, aaj koi aaya nahi ab tak.' 

LOL, bitsians r sooo predictable.......

   Speaking of mongi, it becomes an integral part of life for most people during tests ( it is an integral part of life for many neways :P).  Eating habits get irregular due to all the dedicated studying and most people rely on mongi to bail them out. Same with nite outs, coffee consumption in the entire campus  increases exponentially during this period, again, mongi n nescafe bail people out.....

        When nestle launched maggi, they would never have thought that it would be such a life saver......

All times of the day(night rather) if one walks around the hostel, one will find atleast 10 people making or having maggi in some form.... i think maggi should change their advertisement strategy- 'Raat ke 2 baje bhook lagi hai?? Dont worry, maggi hai na..... ' and maggi should be renamed as - Maggi- the life saver ( waise bhi the ' bas 2 minutes' wala concept has already been changed for us thanks to nescafe, so no harm in trying sth new :P). ( waise according to 'the most fav person on campus' we r not supposed to get hungry at 2am- reasons i will tell later, lambi kahani hai :P)

        The typical schedule during tests includes nite out, thn go n write paper, come back n study for second ppr or sleep( depending on how many pprs in a day), and the cycle repeats again till then end of tests.But honestly all the xam buzz, grp study, late night gossip instead of study(:P) makes it all bearable (n fun actually if u think of it later). Though all the 'other stuff' does reflet on ur marks for sure....

             On a personal front, my ehining increases during this period and 'life suxx, even more thn it usually does ( my frnd knows better :P). 

Neways, its bound to happen thrice everysem , so no point complaining abt it...

better enjoy it, kya pata, fir aisa mauka mile bhi ya nahi.....

time to get back to books....

all the best to everyone...............

lage raho...   :P

                        

Summer Waves 2009

                                              Waves.............. they come,they go..... they take some sand with them,but they leave behind more than they take away......

                                       summer waves this time was something of that sort.......

it started on a hopelessly boring note(the inaugral was boring) but it ended on a high,atleast for me. I didnt get drunk or nething(ob! :P), my parents came for a visit and so I had an amazing time at the end of waves. As i mentioned before i gained a lot. spending time with parents \m/,palolem \m/\m/, panaji\m/, vasco hotel room \m/\m/\m/    :P:P:P.

but more than just beaches or shopping its the time spent with ur loved ones that actually makes it all so important and special.....

i never knew how much i missed my parents until they left me back at the hostel.........

then a friends came visiting from ps2.. funny how going out of the campus for just 3-4 months can change u soo much.....

learnt a lot this waves..

1) u can enever enjoy a fest if u dont have ne job in it

2) feels great to see old friends

3) no matter how best friends u r, it always has a trace of selfish interest

4) jo dikhta hai woh hota nahi

5) indian oceans is a great band

6)there is a limit to everyones patience, no matter how much u take it "lite"

                     and i discovered whole new feelings.................

neways dont feel like typing nemore....

cya....

Quark 09

'He came,he saw,he conquered'- thats how quark started this time,with Dr.Kalams visit.his speech delivered to a jam packed audi containing ppl of 18- 80 yrs was also a big hit(or should i say inspiration). i particularly remember one of the oaths tht he gave us-" I will work and work hard with all the forces of the universe to make my dream come true, whatever it may be".
Truly,the aura of the man is incaptivating..... its like u see him in front of u alive,but still u cant get enough of him..... an amazing experience.....one of the best in my life.... with his entry in the audi,everything seemed worthwhile....... all the security checks,the restrictions,the hour long wait and anticipation melted in one moment with the wave of his hand......it was awesome...........
Tht apart the event was fun too. 10 teams,three events,one prize...... \m/.....
sometimes u never know wat u have to face unless u face it... something like tht happened during the events.... no matter how much u think u r prepared,u r not,u can never tell wat problems can arise during the actual event itself....i guess thats human nature.... complex,unpredictable yet seems to be the most ridiculously simple and obvious thing ever....
Speaking of human nature,there seems to be a sudden surge in emotional problems in the life of ppl around me and its similar.....everyone has similar or related problems..its like an emotional epidemic gripping the campus... i just hope its not gripping my entire generation,otherwise it will lead to a considerable brain drain i guess....Hey ppl,no offence meant,but i always have one question in mind whn i see everything,is all tht u do worth it? i mean is that one person worth all the trouble u take? is tht person worth giving up everything giving up wat u r good at,ur natural talents,ur creative faculties? i for once will never understand the complete involvement of one person in the other,dunno abt u......
That apart,life is rocking as always.... the contemplations continue at intervals...... quark was fun,hopefully waves will be the same...
cya soon..... byeee.

social responsibility...

dont get scared with the topic,it was just one of the topics our trw instructor gave us for gd. i wont go into the details of the gd(ob!!!), but one really interesting point came forward- corporate social responsibility and somehow the conversation steered towards BITS. oh boy!! tough topic i would say,debating the very objective behind establishing the very college u r studying in can be a tricky situation, believe me... it showed all too clearly in the embarrasing silence of the participants. but that apart one point i was unable to digest; one guy started it saying bits was founded as a college by birlas is a social responsibility they have fulfilled.n imagine people actually opposed it- their argument being 'well we r not educated for free' and someone actually said 'they dont have to pay taxes!!!!'. i mean now that was really amusing,i agree we do have a tendency of swearing at like every 2nd person but doubting the very fundamental principle behind the creation of a university like BITS- Pilani!!!! thats really outrageous!!! well atleast that is what i think.
Ok with all due respect to 'individual view point' and 'freedom of speech' and all those 'rights' laws that are stated in the constitution of india one question i want to put forward one question- the Birla's established bits with watever reason, why the h*** should i care?
isnt it more important for me to realise my own social responsibility now???
I mean ok maybe bits was started as an indirect profit earning venture( which m sure it was not,was first started in 1929 by Ghanshyamdas Birla in 1929 as an intermediate college,then during WW2 governmet of india converted it to a college to provide technicians that it needed during the war,and finally 1964 BITS-Pilani was born as a deemed college providing full fledged courses in engineering,basic sciences,pharmacetaucials and management. hardly seems like a profit venture!!)
but the point is we are blaming the other person because of whom we r here studying in a educational institution providing world class facilities in education.(now dont get started on internet facilities n stuff like that,i get bored... m saying u have to agree we have a unique education system in india and some gr8 labs, n u cant deny tht.)So, instead of wondering why BITS was started y not get down to wondering wat is our social responsibility as a bitsian? or maybe as a 19 yr old indian?
I would say why not do wat we r here to do? why not make the full use of opportunities that we come across here and the kind of information that we have access to? i mean after being here for like 3 sems i have realsied one thing- in BITS u progress only as much as u want to,its ur initiative what u want to do and wat not. we have addicted gamers here and we have some godlike technical guys, all on the same campus. thats one gr8 thing here actually u have all kinds of things for all kinds of people,its a free domain.
well coming back to wat i was saying,with the facilities and the kind of freedom we have here,i think that our responsibility would be to make the best use of what we r being provided and pass out of this place being mature,educated and empowered individuals with a sense of responsiblity and the initiative and ability to bring about the changes we want to see in the world. Its not impossible to do so, we do have a setup that can mould us that way and yes it has happeend before.U just have to visit the bitsaa website n u will know wat i m talking about.
ok i guess i have written enough for today, feeling damn tired,cya all.............

Reality....

We aim for the stars, we dream,we aspire……
We work hard to achieve,to be successful……….
And then one small setback,and we feel all the hard work has gone down the drain…..
What about those who receive major setbacks? For no fault of theirs….
Or those for whom even the start of a dream is a struggle?
Who have to face things not meant for their age or understanding?
Are our problems and setbacks greater than theirs? Our relationship troubles, most of them self created, really worth all the energy we put into them?
Are all those things that seem so much important now really that big a deal?
What is it that we should live by?
What exactly is reality?
Is it what everyone believes to be true?or is it the rationale?
Is it what we perceive by our sense organs? Or just a belief that we have had ever since we remember and never bothered to question? Is it something we believe because we cannot find any contradiction for it or something that the mind can arrive at with proper logical reasoning?
Why do we really believe in what we believe?????

This was written when i got some bad news about a friend. It was compre time n wat i heard shook me to the core. Being emotional as i m the above thought process was immediate,specially since it was a time when i was seeing a ot of problems around me apart from my own( mine was ob low scores related). I know its may be boring n sounds too heavy n stuff but then sometimes u just cant help thinking wat u think......
I m still searching for the answers to my own questions, hopefully i will get them this sem.......

The way people behave.....

"How can she do this"? - myself.
"I dunno but thats how she is right now"- friend 1
" She is acting weird now a days"- friend2.
This is a part of the conversation i just had with 2 of my great friends. We have been together for 10 years now. Needless to say it was about another friend,someone from our group,someone very close to us and with us for the past 10 years. Its amazing how people change in college though and more surprising is to see how some of them never change.
As u may have guessed by now,the one about whom the conversation is has changed.Not just changed ,changed a lot if u ask me. OK i guess u r bored by now so let me ask u something.
LOgical question,u want to invest some money,which company will u prefer,someone which has been in market for long,or just a new venture just started,not even stabilised yet. Its ob u will go for the older company. Then y not apply the same logic in ur life?
how can anybody trust a person they have known for like six months more than they can trust their parents? i mean come on now,ur parents have known u since u were born,they know each and every aspect of u minutely,and still u dont trust them? worse u trust someone who has known u for just 6months or say an year. Is it possible under any circumstances that any such person will know u betetr than ur parents do? U say my parents dont understand me, now one question werent ur parents the one who understood ur evey need when u couldnt even talk?
And if u feel they dont understand u,then talk,why shy away from ur parents? HOw can people not understand such an obvious thing?
I for once strongly believe that in ur life,there has to be one person,atleast one whom u trust completely,with everything u do,everything u feel,u share with that one person. That person is ur anchor,ur lighthouse in the sea of life. n i dont think there can be anybody better suited for this role than ur parents,again i give the reasons as above. That person can be ur role model, someone u respect, someone u believe in. ur guideline in life i would like to say.
Ok enough of my lecture. Something about myself. M a 2nd yr student at BPGC,dual degree,bio+eni. NOw dont ask me y all this,its just me. Bio freak my friends say. Well thats about it for now,gotta go,mom calling. CYa soon..............